Monday, February 16, 2015

That Post That Was A Poem.

Inspiration struck- I typed, this is the result. A lonely poem posted out of the blue because well... I had to! 


Shall I say of myself I long to be unhappy.
Shall I say that happiness
Like cheap gum loses its flavor quickly
That to be happy for one moment too long
One moment spent happiest
Is the most unkind
That sadness and discord of the soul
Are what fuel this mind to keep out mold.
But then shall I also say
That music
The best of sorts
The kind that lifts your heart and eyes to
Look heaven word
Well, this I shall say
This is the music I enjoy

Shall I also say that love and all things holy
Are what I crave for myself
That the peace of goodness
Is the sense of whole-ness.
Shall I also say that there is an infinite struggle
The fight for fright and life
The battle of two separate minds
Logic and faith
Fish and bait
Wanting to be early
But then again being late
The being and the maybe will be
The has been and the now it’s hurting again

Shall I also say there is an infinite struggle
That leaves my mind in mushy puddles
If I ponder too hard what will I say of you?
I should invalidate your taste and person
I should not let you affect me in person
I should shut you and I away in separate boxes- boxes of light and dark
Of mind and heart
But this is not of art
This is out of not wanting part
I don’t want to hurt you
I don’t want to love you
I don’t want to make you part of me
I don’t want to look at the inside because indoors is where ego goes to horde
Stores and stores of priceless precious opinion
Stores and stores of mooring-less points of derision 
Everything in me wants to run away
Run away
Block out
Shut up
Shut down
Shut out- open the door
shaking and anticipating
that maybe something hopeful may come out.


Shall I say of myself, I long to be happy.
Shall I say that the presence of hope is the best way I know how to cope.
Shall I say I love to be happy
Shall I say of myself, the pain is worth the sunshine
That the sun will shine

That happiness can be mine.

-dh